Stay Stay Stay

Just a couple more days before second semester starts! Two more nights to be precise. And I haven't even caught up that much on sleep or even practiced doing some artworks or even looked for inspiration.

I'm so excited and at the same time scared for this semester because of what lies ahead. I'm pretty sure than I can't reach the expectations of our professors and can't even match the works of my blockmates thus making mysel feel even smaller than usual. But I won't give up, I have no choice.

Makes me wanna wonder why I even choose Advertising Arts. Oh yeah, it's the only course I passed. Enough said. Thomasian Pride.

I really want to get away with traditional art and try visual art cause I think I'm better at it. I guess I'll practice more with water color and do what Aaron does, G-Tech doodles. With having visual art courses, it gives me more reasons to own a Macbook Pro. Don't forget about the camera that mom has already opened up on her own.

Just 7 more semesters. Hold on a little tighter and in just a few while, you'll graduate, Joseph. You can do it.

I Dreamed a Dream

It's finally the sembreak. After all those days, sleepless nights, sleeping during class hours, comedic fun with my block, hanging out with the boys, staying at Mika's dorm, and everything that happened, it's finally here. The event that everyone had been waiting for!

I can finally start on what I've been planning for. I actually started last night. I cleaned my first semester mess in my room and in our living room. Everything's refreshing to look at again. I have a lot planned for the approximately 3 weeks rest that I would have.

Well, there's the cleaning part. After that, I wanna be a new me. Cliche. I need to regain the sleep I lacked because of cramming and staying up late. I wanna lose theses eyebags and pimples. I wanna be handsome so finding a boyfriend wouldn't be that hard.

Next up is I need to fix my hair. After another session of having it straightened around 3rd week of October, I might have it colored/dyed/streaked with blonde or brown or something. I'm still not sure if I'd do it this sembreak or on Christmas break. So far, Christmas break is on my mind so that in our annual family picture, I'd be a new me.

I still need to save up money if I want to get that Macbook Pro that I've been wanting so badly. Hopefully I don't go spending the money that I saved up. So far, I'm still far from the price of a Pro. Pfft.

In this 3 weeks rest, I gotta find my inner creativity and artist within me. I don't wanna fail my first year and shift course or even shift schools, even if it already came in my mind. Watercolor is a really awesome medium.

Besides the artist within me, I gotta get back the Journalistic Otie that has been hiding because of school. I haven't had the time to really blog about something. My blog has turned into a reblog-blog and my Project 366 is a complete mess. I'm just continuing it just to say I accomplish it. More blogging on Tumblr, Blogspot, and even Wordpress. Perhaps on Posterous too but whatever.

To top everything off and to start the new me, I'm starting a new life. This is in connection to my life as Jay, John Francis, xjohnf, or whatever screen name I use. Stop doing those stuff, Otie. Don't ruin your life.

So that's about what I'm planning this semestral break. Too much for a 3 week break but who cares. I work best when I'm motivated and when I'm aiming at something. But then again, I'm not motivated so whatever.

Let Love Down

I'm feeling jealous of this friend of mine. Why? Because he has thing thing with one of my friends. It was I who "hooked" them up together. I'd say it was an unintentional intentional hook-up. I was just supposed to meet with one of them or either go to the mall with one of them. Being devious and all, I merged both plans together and just went along with what I had in mind. Well, I thought it didn't went as how I planned it to be. I thought wrong. When we separated, confessions rose and I found out that they like each other. They end up chatting, talking on the phone, having a date, being sweet and all. I'm a bit jealous knowing that it was I who started everything and I'm the one who doesn't have anything nor anyone. Ugh.

Hey Soul Sister

It's been quite a while.
I kinda like this guy again. His name is Ralph. He is Jared's blockmate. A friend of Arnold. A Stitch lover.
On his tumblr, he keeps on posting stuff about Stitch. He said that he doesn't have a Stitch stuffed toy yet. In my mind, I knew I should be the first to give him one.
I tried looking at SM Bacoor, SM Mall of Asia, SM Manila, Robinsons Imus, Alabang Town Center, and many others. I also texted a lot of people asking if they they knew where I could buy one. O ended up buying one at Robinsons Ermita.
I was all alone during that time. I tried lots of stores and boutiques. Luckily there was this one place that had a Stitch. Such a relief. I bought it even if it costed me Php598.
Friday the 13th, I gave it to you. We were all alone, besides the fact that we were at the food court.
I started with "Diba you said you're not good with surprises?". He then opened the paper bag and out came a Stitch stuffed toy. During that moment, my heart beat was so fast. I didn't know why. I was so happy. He was so happy. He then talked about how he didn't have a lot of stuffed toys at home. But he told me that he would keep this one. I was the first one to give it to him.
We parted ways. I was still so happy.
I know you'll never like me. I just took the risk and tried cause you might like me too. And, I just wanted you to feel that someone appreciated you and that I want to surprise you with a Stitch.
Till we see each other again, Ralphie.

Turn Up The Music

Just a couple more hours until my first class as a college freshie. Excited? Yes. I just woke up three and a hafl hours earlier than what I expected. This is probably cause my body clock is still fucked up. Well, it's nothing a few classes can't fix.

I'm so thrilled to meet my blockmates, but most importantly, Hypers. Hope that they'll be awesome people so I can make the next 4 (hopefully) years ahead of me great.

Though they're no HalfBloods, moreover, Clover, they're a bunch of new people. New attitudes, new problems, new jokes, new lives, new everything. I just gotta learn to adjust to them and be the same (or better) Otie, or better yet, Seph, to them.

College life 101. Lezzgeriron! \m/

Long Distance

College is gonna start tomorrow.

Since it's just around the corner, you better be focused again. Put your head in the game. Remember, you're aiming to be a Dean Lister or better yet, a Cum Laude. You better hit the books again. Minimize your usage of the computer. Three hours should be enough. Aim high.

Also, you need to prove to yourself that you've changed. No flirting. I know you can't do it. So, let's say minimize it. No serious relationship unless you really like him. You'll just get unfocused and put your attention on him. Remember, you have an aim.

Put everything to its finest. Make a good impression. Do not be debarred. You have big dream that is soon gonna be a reality. You will have a camera, MacBook Pro, and you'll go to New York. Don't forget to have fun along the way. Make it the most memorable years of your life. Don't forget your high school friends though.

Get ready for the newest chapter of your life.

Puppy Love

I just realize that I don't really own you, that I really have no right to be jealous over the guys you're talking to and that I really have no right to be overly protective over you.

I mean, who am I to you anyways? I'm not your ex or anything. We just flirted, like what you normally do with other guys. So I wonder, "what makes me special and different from them?"

You told me before that I was special and that I was different. You told me that you wouldn't play and abuse ny feelings. I'm still holding on to that.

There's one thing that's making me happy and still trusting you. The fact that I'm the only one that has met your entire family and the fact that I was the one who spent the most time with you during your stay here. Atleast that's making me contented with what you gave me.

See you soon, Lance. See you soon, New York.

Boyfriend

I'm currently torn between two lovers. Kidding aside. I can't decide between Canon and Nikon.
I asked a couple of people on their opinions about this and there was a battle between the two choices. Some favoured Canon, some Nikon. This made my decision making more difficult.
I read some reviews online about the debate and it made it more difficult for me to choose. Personally, I like Canon. Not being biased at all, I've tried both of the leading brands. Both with their own ups and downs.
One would be better with its appearance and structure. The other would win over the other because of its specifications and the like. Also, there's the factor about buttons and sounds. Morever is the quality of the pictures considering the factors of aperture, ISO, pixels, brightness, color, etc.
I still haven't decided between the two. Hope I can pick one soon.

Cactus In The Valley

It's been a while since my last post. I've been quite busy with enjoying my May 2012. I'm just updating again. Let's see what has happened these past few days.


Well, first of all, my date with Lance. More likely dates cause I think I was the one who shared the most time with him while he's here in the Philippines. I got to have an amazing date with him which was followed by a sleepover, attended Brax's baptismal at Dasma where a swimming was held after, went to school then Mcdonald's then College of Saint Benilde then SM Mall Of Asia with him, and finally got to introduce him to my mom at school. He made my May so memorable. 


It's currently the 26th and he's leaving tomorrow. I want to have one last moment with him before he goes back to New York. Perhaps even just 2 hours with him would be fine with him. All I need is some time to spend with him and something for him to remember me along. But I guess he's very tired from all the schedules and dates that he had during his stay here.


I'm currently hoping, besides the two of us bonding or just seeing each other tomorrow, is that his date with Jared wouldn't commence. I so hate Jared right now that I'd want him to be sad. I know it's bad but he made me like this. Well, that's what he gets.


That's basically the first highlight of my May. This is followed by my first concert ever. Lady Gaga's The Born This Way Ball: Live in Manila which was held at the MOA Arena last May 21, 2012. I'll never forget this concert. I was screaming and shouting the entire time that I was so tired after. I love you Lady Gaga. Hope you'd come back to the Philippines.


Guess who's flirting again. It's Diolo. We met at SM Mall of Asia one time and we had something special. I guess that's special. Whatever you call it. I enjoyed my time with him but I guess everything went downhill from there. Who knows how we would end.


Besides flirting, there's also talking. Not only between Hypers, CFAD-ARKI and 1AD-7, but also between me and my ex/former. Whatever term is accurate. We're talking again through text and tweets. Not yet with chat and in person. But I guess were getting there.


Besides all of that, I had my new baby. No, he's not a person. It's a camera. A worn out Canon PowerShot S5IS. It came from my aunt and she's giving it to me as a second hand help for college. It wasn't what I really expected but I guess I can manage with it.


Oh, I almost forgot about my relatives who came home from abroad. England, New Jersey and Abu Dhabi. I'm spending all my possible time with them while they are still here. 


That's basically my May. People, stuff, events. Just a couple more days till college.

Ego

My recent text messages have been so weirdly controversial. First there's the text from Jasher and now, a text from Jared.

As usual, Jared is asking for forgiveness. He said:

"Sorry po. Tumaas na naman pride ko. Pasensya po."

Seriously. I knew that this would happen. You fell inlove with him again in a snap. You're just in a hurry to love someone and be love.

That moment when you posted those posts about me and for me, right then I decided that you left my life and there's no way that I'm letting you back in. I already unfollowed you on Tumblr and Twitter. I won't delete you on Facebook though cause I need your pictures and I still want some updates about you.

Good luck, Mr. Benildean. Have a happy life, bitch. Adios.

Baby Steps

This is about my recent talk with my ex boyfriend, Jasher.

He left me a message on Viber. It came to my knowledge that it was he who messaged me. We had a very short talk. After that, it wasn't followed whatsoever.

With my friends' ideas on this, I suddenly wonder, "Why is he suddenly talking to me? Why did he even leave me a message?". Is he coming back? Why is he even coming back when I have forgotten about him? I may not have forgotten him fully, but I'm getting there bit by bit.

Whatever happens next, I won't be afraid and nervous anymore. I wob't be bitter no more. If he wants to talk, I'll talk.

Let's see where this goes.

Back At One

Irrelevant title. Actually, it's what was currently playing on my iTouch as I began typing this entry.

This post is about my newly found friends at CFAD - ARKI. I found new people that I can mingle with. They are the people that I look forward to talk to talk to everytime that I go online.

Kian. He's one of the noisiest people in the group. He's from Statefields Academy.

Tony. We're not that close but we talk.

Jabo. She calls me Jo and I call her Pogi. She's the only one in the group that knows my secret.

Eina. Miss Lachowski. Night Shifter as well.

Cionne. I call him C1. I obviously miss Clover.

Toby. The rich guy. Lol.

Tete. Ultimate Kpop fan there. Loves to Spazz. He once spazzed anout TaeTiSeo and Twinkle. He taught me the meaning of SNSD.

Migs. Atenista. One if the guys in Cutest Faces. Well, he is cute. I once called him Master Migs because he was the most experienced in love according to Kian. Well, we talked about my date with Lance. He thinks that I have a date with a girl.

Zie. She's one of the prettiest in the group. Another one from Cavite.

Pau. Balutan. Markian. Apparent ex of Shane. He likes Yazie, I mean Maraih. He started calling me Seph, making it Sephy, then Xephy. He gave me a bew name call.

Jens. Another one from Cutest faces. She's really nice. I like her. Lol.

Well, there you have it. Ten newly found friends in Beato Angelico, the building where there are no ugly people, where sleep is just a figment of our imagination, where talent is always in every corner. I think I forgot some people there.

Nobody calls me John, Joseph, Mama Ots, Mama, Ots, Otie or anything that my High school friends used to call me. They call me Seph, Jo, and some other personal name calls.

We're so noisy in the group. The chatbox ought to exploud because of our noise. Comment box stories, Invading Twitter, Skype Antics, and a whole lot more things we shares together.

None of them are my blockmates and majority of them are from different courses.

Different schedules, different hometowns, different attitudes, different people. Welcome to college!

Otie Blogs... Again.

The title says it all. I deleted my first blogspot for this new one. I'm gonna miss all those memories that I posted on that blog. Oh well. I can start posting new memories.

My previous blog just contains so much memories about guys I've fallen for, which happens a lot. Also, it contains memories of my ex-boyfriend. It's not that I want to forgot about him, it's just that I want to learn how to move on.

Anyways, OtieBlogs is up and running again. Besides my Tumblr and Posterous accounts, and other Social Sites, expect more of my life and more random stuff.