I just realize that I don't really own you, that I really have no right to be jealous over the guys you're talking to and that I really have no right to be overly protective over you.
I mean, who am I to you anyways? I'm not your ex or anything. We just flirted, like what you normally do with other guys. So I wonder, "what makes me special and different from them?"
You told me before that I was special and that I was different. You told me that you wouldn't play and abuse ny feelings. I'm still holding on to that.
There's one thing that's making me happy and still trusting you. The fact that I'm the only one that has met your entire family and the fact that I was the one who spent the most time with you during your stay here. Atleast that's making me contented with what you gave me.
See you soon, Lance. See you soon, New York.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Monday, May 28, 2012
Boyfriend
I'm currently torn between two lovers. Kidding aside. I can't decide between Canon and Nikon.
I asked a couple of people on their opinions about this and there was a battle between the two choices. Some favoured Canon, some Nikon. This made my decision making more difficult.
I read some reviews online about the debate and it made it more difficult for me to choose. Personally, I like Canon. Not being biased at all, I've tried both of the leading brands. Both with their own ups and downs.
One would be better with its appearance and structure. The other would win over the other because of its specifications and the like. Also, there's the factor about buttons and sounds. Morever is the quality of the pictures considering the factors of aperture, ISO, pixels, brightness, color, etc.
I still haven't decided between the two. Hope I can pick one soon.
I asked a couple of people on their opinions about this and there was a battle between the two choices. Some favoured Canon, some Nikon. This made my decision making more difficult.
I read some reviews online about the debate and it made it more difficult for me to choose. Personally, I like Canon. Not being biased at all, I've tried both of the leading brands. Both with their own ups and downs.
One would be better with its appearance and structure. The other would win over the other because of its specifications and the like. Also, there's the factor about buttons and sounds. Morever is the quality of the pictures considering the factors of aperture, ISO, pixels, brightness, color, etc.
I still haven't decided between the two. Hope I can pick one soon.
Friday, May 25, 2012
Cactus In The Valley
It's been a while since my last post. I've been quite busy with enjoying my May 2012. I'm just updating again. Let's see what has happened these past few days.
Well, first of all, my date with Lance. More likely dates cause I think I was the one who shared the most time with him while he's here in the Philippines. I got to have an amazing date with him which was followed by a sleepover, attended Brax's baptismal at Dasma where a swimming was held after, went to school then Mcdonald's then College of Saint Benilde then SM Mall Of Asia with him, and finally got to introduce him to my mom at school. He made my May so memorable.
It's currently the 26th and he's leaving tomorrow. I want to have one last moment with him before he goes back to New York. Perhaps even just 2 hours with him would be fine with him. All I need is some time to spend with him and something for him to remember me along. But I guess he's very tired from all the schedules and dates that he had during his stay here.
I'm currently hoping, besides the two of us bonding or just seeing each other tomorrow, is that his date with Jared wouldn't commence. I so hate Jared right now that I'd want him to be sad. I know it's bad but he made me like this. Well, that's what he gets.
That's basically the first highlight of my May. This is followed by my first concert ever. Lady Gaga's The Born This Way Ball: Live in Manila which was held at the MOA Arena last May 21, 2012. I'll never forget this concert. I was screaming and shouting the entire time that I was so tired after. I love you Lady Gaga. Hope you'd come back to the Philippines.
Guess who's flirting again. It's Diolo. We met at SM Mall of Asia one time and we had something special. I guess that's special. Whatever you call it. I enjoyed my time with him but I guess everything went downhill from there. Who knows how we would end.
Besides flirting, there's also talking. Not only between Hypers, CFAD-ARKI and 1AD-7, but also between me and my ex/former. Whatever term is accurate. We're talking again through text and tweets. Not yet with chat and in person. But I guess were getting there.
Besides all of that, I had my new baby. No, he's not a person. It's a camera. A worn out Canon PowerShot S5IS. It came from my aunt and she's giving it to me as a second hand help for college. It wasn't what I really expected but I guess I can manage with it.
Oh, I almost forgot about my relatives who came home from abroad. England, New Jersey and Abu Dhabi. I'm spending all my possible time with them while they are still here.
That's basically my May. People, stuff, events. Just a couple more days till college.
Well, first of all, my date with Lance. More likely dates cause I think I was the one who shared the most time with him while he's here in the Philippines. I got to have an amazing date with him which was followed by a sleepover, attended Brax's baptismal at Dasma where a swimming was held after, went to school then Mcdonald's then College of Saint Benilde then SM Mall Of Asia with him, and finally got to introduce him to my mom at school. He made my May so memorable.
It's currently the 26th and he's leaving tomorrow. I want to have one last moment with him before he goes back to New York. Perhaps even just 2 hours with him would be fine with him. All I need is some time to spend with him and something for him to remember me along. But I guess he's very tired from all the schedules and dates that he had during his stay here.
I'm currently hoping, besides the two of us bonding or just seeing each other tomorrow, is that his date with Jared wouldn't commence. I so hate Jared right now that I'd want him to be sad. I know it's bad but he made me like this. Well, that's what he gets.
That's basically the first highlight of my May. This is followed by my first concert ever. Lady Gaga's The Born This Way Ball: Live in Manila which was held at the MOA Arena last May 21, 2012. I'll never forget this concert. I was screaming and shouting the entire time that I was so tired after. I love you Lady Gaga. Hope you'd come back to the Philippines.
Guess who's flirting again. It's Diolo. We met at SM Mall of Asia one time and we had something special. I guess that's special. Whatever you call it. I enjoyed my time with him but I guess everything went downhill from there. Who knows how we would end.
Besides flirting, there's also talking. Not only between Hypers, CFAD-ARKI and 1AD-7, but also between me and my ex/former. Whatever term is accurate. We're talking again through text and tweets. Not yet with chat and in person. But I guess were getting there.
Besides all of that, I had my new baby. No, he's not a person. It's a camera. A worn out Canon PowerShot S5IS. It came from my aunt and she's giving it to me as a second hand help for college. It wasn't what I really expected but I guess I can manage with it.
Oh, I almost forgot about my relatives who came home from abroad. England, New Jersey and Abu Dhabi. I'm spending all my possible time with them while they are still here.
That's basically my May. People, stuff, events. Just a couple more days till college.
Friday, May 4, 2012
Ego
My recent text messages have been so weirdly controversial. First there's the text from Jasher and now, a text from Jared.
As usual, Jared is asking for forgiveness. He said:
"Sorry po. Tumaas na naman pride ko. Pasensya po."
Seriously. I knew that this would happen. You fell inlove with him again in a snap. You're just in a hurry to love someone and be love.
That moment when you posted those posts about me and for me, right then I decided that you left my life and there's no way that I'm letting you back in. I already unfollowed you on Tumblr and Twitter. I won't delete you on Facebook though cause I need your pictures and I still want some updates about you.
Good luck, Mr. Benildean. Have a happy life, bitch. Adios.
As usual, Jared is asking for forgiveness. He said:
"Sorry po. Tumaas na naman pride ko. Pasensya po."
Seriously. I knew that this would happen. You fell inlove with him again in a snap. You're just in a hurry to love someone and be love.
That moment when you posted those posts about me and for me, right then I decided that you left my life and there's no way that I'm letting you back in. I already unfollowed you on Tumblr and Twitter. I won't delete you on Facebook though cause I need your pictures and I still want some updates about you.
Good luck, Mr. Benildean. Have a happy life, bitch. Adios.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Baby Steps
This is about my recent talk with my ex boyfriend, Jasher.
He left me a message on Viber. It came to my knowledge that it was he who messaged me. We had a very short talk. After that, it wasn't followed whatsoever.
With my friends' ideas on this, I suddenly wonder, "Why is he suddenly talking to me? Why did he even leave me a message?". Is he coming back? Why is he even coming back when I have forgotten about him? I may not have forgotten him fully, but I'm getting there bit by bit.
Whatever happens next, I won't be afraid and nervous anymore. I wob't be bitter no more. If he wants to talk, I'll talk.
Let's see where this goes.
He left me a message on Viber. It came to my knowledge that it was he who messaged me. We had a very short talk. After that, it wasn't followed whatsoever.
With my friends' ideas on this, I suddenly wonder, "Why is he suddenly talking to me? Why did he even leave me a message?". Is he coming back? Why is he even coming back when I have forgotten about him? I may not have forgotten him fully, but I'm getting there bit by bit.
Whatever happens next, I won't be afraid and nervous anymore. I wob't be bitter no more. If he wants to talk, I'll talk.
Let's see where this goes.
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